*Abygail *19 *Idaho State University* *Future Music Educator*
"I like people and I like them to like me, but I wear my heart where God put it, on the inside." – F. Scott Fitzgerald
Don’t fall for the choir president. Don’t fall for the choir president. Don’t fall for the choir president. Don’t fall for the choir president. Don’t fall for the choir president.
Music theory = LIFE.
I really miss my best friend right now.
Today is the first time in a long time that I’ve really wanted to self harm. What makes it worse is that I leave to go live all alone in two days.
I’m really hoping moving to poky might change some things. Maybe I’ll stop being scared of seeing you everywhere I go and maybe I’ll forget about all those horrible nights I sat up waiting for you to text back knowing that I wasn’t going to get it because ‘your phone died’ when really, in the back of my mind, I knew you we’re probably with another girl.
I remember when we decided to keep what had happened between us on the down-low. I thought it was exciting, the idea of having our own little forbidden romance. As time went on though, It felt weird. Almost like i was some dirty little secret.
I still hate you and I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to forgive you to what you did to me. I was in such a bad place after Tj and you probably knew it too. You took advantage of the fact I felt like shit on a stick.
The worst part is that you don’t care. After I wanted to end things, you could have cared less and you probably slept with some other girl. I know this is my fault but you said you were my friend and the fact that you were supposed to be the older and more mature one makes me feel worse.
Even typing out this rant makes me so mad/sad/confused. I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. I hope you have this done to you one day so you know how much it fucks up a person.
I’m literally the worst friend ever and should drive my car off a cliff.
australia’s got a lot of fucked up shit going on but at least we can say our last mass shooting was 18 years ago
because after it happened we placed higher restrictions on gun ownership
because that’s the logical fucking thing to do